After so many days im finally back to blog. my own space to express out my feelings ! Well, i wonder what will happen this christmas? i think it maybe just as normal as other days or bad memories or a good start. i not sure..really dont know if this is real or not. Most likely, __ will choose to be friend with me after the meet up i guess.. as __ said let nature take its course. i really thank my friend for giving me advise and warning me(concerning) .. Everything to me is like a gambling..you wont know the final outcome is what but you will know the outcome already. __ might be doing this to other girls too.. THINGS I NEED TO CONSIDERED: -i might be 1 of his entertainment.. -he might have other motive -he might even be gone after this tuesday..lie to me that he is going to genting then gone forever.. *he wasnt serious to me and he treat me as a free maid or what..
To be honest i have no confident in myself at all.. my pimple and scar face as well as a fat body..gosh! i might as well die!! he said like want to be friend that RS..thn no choices lor..i cant do anything to it.. he always lie to me !
God! please let him love me and like me even more when we meet! i hope his mind is always thinking of me and only me...
haix..why my life is like this?? when can i find my edward?? a guy that love me alot and willing to care and concern me ?? if i cant get married at age of 35 im not going to be anticipate in love ..
